I've been sick and had to work all weekend, my lower back feels like theres a hook in it, hot girl at work is leaving, I'm in one of my existential moods where I don't ever want to do anything for the rest of my life etc. I'm somehow fine with everything though because it doesn't mean anything. I guess I just had to get this all down in writing to feel better.
AAAAh my nose is dripping everywhere!

also I'm stuck with this fucking rough tissue.

all I had to eat today were a few whoppers (candy not burger) some dry cereal, and then I had a bit of water. This isn't good, I'm not even hungry, or maybe this is good. I guess I should start eating only when I'm hungry, I might lose weight, or I might actually be able to stay at my current weight! oh god why am I so fat. Also, I had an entire triple size Rockstr last night and went right to bed, I think my metabolism is all screwed up. I'm going to a party tonight, it should be fun, its at the theater I work at and we're watching The Big Lebowski, and then we might play Guitar Hero II on a big theater screen.

Is it bad when I have to start doing math to figure out if I'm getting enough sleep? Seriously, yesterday I slept for about 12 hours, from 2am-2pm, then that night I didn't sleep at all until around 8am the next morning for 4 hours. And then I went to work 5 hours later. I've been adding and subtracting hours to figure out if I'm getting enough sleep so that I don't crash at work. I've lost track now though and I'm wondering if I'll fall asleep tonight or not. I wish I lived alone so that I could actually use the computer or be productive when I can't sleep. I'm afraid that by the time I'm old enough to move out I wont have the inspiration, imagination, and what little motivation I have now. I think I need to write more and stop forgetting all my somewhat good ideas.

testing a new idea I had.

My mommy went to the store and got milk and more delicious cereal so I have mold mereal now. Also I'm working on my part for a collab that has no other people working on it. It started out as a short little animation by mreva03 link. And I suggested a collab be started for the song used. I cut up the song into like 5 pieces which took forever and was the most annoying thing ever. Then I started working on my piece and failed to mention it to any of the other people that seemed interested. I should get around to that, damn me and my procrastination.

Also I have a great idea for a flash series, but I suck at animating anything thats coherent. I have too many ideas and no skills to publish any of them. ):
at least I have milk.

I think its the whole no school summer vacation thing suddenly hitting me, but lately I've been in a mood where I don't want to do anything at all, even the most simple task like putting on a pair of pants, or even shorts is an annoying concept. When I'm at work though I'm still able to perform regularly and get things done, probably because I'm getting payed.

Pretty much all I've been doing is playing Xbox live, eating some dry cereal, and going online to check if people still care about me and to watch porn. I think I should start doing flash or something during the day thats productive.

Hello all of you bored Newgrounds users out there that have nothing better to do but check out this cool new news post system, and read what useless nonsense people think everyone wants to read. Anyway I'm really happy they included a way to post on the front page, even though I'm sure most people don't even look at this stuff, and I'm sure most of you have felt like that a lot of the time, like whenever you make a flash animation that gets ignored but is still moderately cool, or when you make a song that happens to not give people a headache, but they still don't want to listen to. I feel like this pretty much any time I create something and try to share it on the internet, like there's so much crap out there that all looks and sounds the same, but people like it just because, and so I started my own website, mostly just to clump all my crap I make into one place. Then I thought, there's got to be other people doing this same thing and not getting noticed. So I decided to open up my website to everyone, so that you can all share your stuff that doesn't get noticed, whether it be a flash animation that was denied from the newgrounds portal, or a song you made that no one will listen to, or a movie, a comic, a story, a review, pretty much anything that is possible to be sent through internet tubes you can share with other people like you on my website.

I'm not trying to persuade you to leave newgrounds, I think newgrounds is a great place to share stuff that artists make, but if you ever feel the portal is getting clogged with too much repetitive stories and animations, feel free to show it off in a currently empty community where its sure to get noticed by far more people. Silent Magazine